Hello, I've decided not to talk about my last hellish week. All I will say is that I suffered a lot, but I pulled through, knowing it was all going to end. And everything fell into place. I shall talk about my days of freedom instead.
I think the best part of it all was my day of pure solo fun yesterday. I spent it in quite a sad way: I watched Enchanted all by myself and then walked down Orchard road, all by myself. The thought of being solitary was kinda pathetic initially, and I was so daunted I was hoping I'd make a random friend on the street (hopefully a girl) and then land up going together with that person. As you can tell, I've been all alone without quality company for too darn long. I'm glad that I didn't have that company once again. I had complete total freedom of movement, and I could go wherever I wanted to, spend as much time doing whatever I wanted. For example I spent a solid one hour just listening to music from That CD store and HMV. Got me Il Divo christmas collection and Devils and Angels from Melee. I'm so happy with my buys, especially the Il divo, because I cannot stand having a christmas without nice Christmas carols (and not those cheesy jingle bells ones). And I'm so so so happy I FINALLY found Melee's album. remember that heartwarming number of theirs, "Built to Last"? In my opinion, taht's just the tip of the iceberg of what the band has to offer. All their music is good and clean stuff. I hope they stay like taht forever, I'm gonna be one of their official fans!
Enchanted. Well, first of all let's ignore the group of Ang Moh American girls who were real noisy and kept screaming at certain 'scary' parts of the movie, oh and making their unwanted comments. After erasing them from the scene, I have to say that it was quite a piteous situation watching the movie all alone without anyone special (oh and having a otherwise amiable Filipino maid who's only sin was laughing too loudly and that crying baby who I could tolerate after being big brother 4 times over eh let's erase them from the scene too). My point is that I shouldn't have gone all alone; some points in the movie I felt overemotional and having familiar company would've suppressed it. The movie was an ingenious twist from the traditional old school disney fairytale storyline. It was also a hilarious satire on how ridiculously out of touch with reality they are. Like how the princess and prince somehow always get married ASAP, and the over-romanticised power of 'True Love's kiss". Of course, your favourite skeptic over here begs to differ in all of it essence; I don' believe that life is such a lovely fairytale. And that's exactly why I enjoyed the movie somehow, it stirred up these conflicting perspectives. There's a clash between one world in which love is a fantasy always come true, while love is a state strived for in another. In the end there's some sort of balance achieved, and everyone is put in their rightful place. It's a lovely story...except for the dragon part which made no sense at all.
Sadly, after watching the movie, I felt the loud thud of being put back into reality again. I looked outside, looking at the youth walking together, and you take one good look at them and know something's wrong. How does 'true love' exist in this world? How can 'true love' ever exist with false pretence and rationality, where the former stirs up false and insincere emotions of affection, and the latter will never make love as pure as it is, often contaminating with *cough cough* skepticism. I remember Mr Whitby proclaiming his disillusionment about love. After all, he's a bachelor in his 60s. But he quickly warned the class never to become like him, because we're young and love is still lovely. Haha, I must remember that.
Indeed I wish I had my times, where I could be with someone. The feeling's been especially affirmative these last few days when I've had practically no one to turn to in my down times, I wish I could just call on someone who knew me straight away and be rescued. My time will come one day. I think what I'm going through now will prepare me. Someone said that his first girlfriend will be his wife; strangely he found it to be a quaint and outdated, almost unacceptable concept, as if he were a loser. No way. I think it would be an accomplishment. You save all the heartbreaks anyway, if you go for a relationship that's doomed from the start.
The movie taught us something good. When you've found the right person, then all will go good. The believe (a little bit more at least) in the fairytal-ish kind of lovey-dovey. Hopefully my princess will come one day and I've been dreaming of my true love's kiss, instead of being an annoyingly addictive song taht everyone's singing, will come true.
Anyway, I'm flying off to India early tmr, so I'll catch you all sometime soon! I'l still be on msn I think. Bye! And Merry Christmas!
